In the past, I’ve shared with people (see Thankfulness and my Catatonic Life) what I experience when I slip into a catatonic state. These episodes started out small but have become much more frequent and long lasting. In the past few weeks I have had episodes of a few minutes to as much as 4 hours. During these episodes I am not asleep or unconscious. I have little or no control over my body and I can hear what people are saying but I am unable to respond to them. It feels like I am in a strange twilight zone, a dreamlike state.
I hesitate to post this video because it is painful to watch but this is the reality of my life today.